there is something about writing out your fantasies for the internet that is inherently arousing, arousing enough that i wonder if it even matters if anyone is reading it. the act of typing out a tale of lust is enough to get the lustful juices flowing.
in fact, just discussing the arousal factor involved in writing ‘dirty’ posts is enough to get my juices thinking about flowing. in fact, i think i just twitched. i wonder what is is about knowing that my words, things that i find erotic or stories about what i myself did to myself or wish i could do or wish i had someone to do with are just out there for anyone (or no one) to find and i can’t control it.
someone might masturbate or get aroused or be bored to tears and it’s about what i choose to reveal and what i don’t. well really i guess it’s whether they even read far enough to know what i’m saying. heck, maybe they wouldn’t like the template and they would just click next blog.
funnily enough i don’t really care which of those things actually happens.
it’s the knowing. knowing that someone i know or might know or have never met and will never hear of might just stumble across this.
does that make me a closet exhibitionist?
hrm, are you in the closet if you have a blog?
what if it’s an anonymous blog?
that’s actually an interesting question, will this blog encourage me to liberate myself sexually or will it give me an outlet for my sexual frustration and thus reduce my likelihood of giving out the ‘i need to get laid’ pheremones.
actually i read once that the more sex you have the more sex you’re offered… and i wonder if masturbation counts, if it does then really, i should be getting offered sex!
sometimes, i don’t wash my hands after and then i enjoy the smell of my fun for hours afterward…
i wonder sometimes if it’s rude to wander around with your pheremones hanging out like that.. and then i realise that i don’t care.
wow, maybe i really am a closet exhibitionist… *thinks about several recurring fantasies* … yup. guess i am.
yes you’ll get to read them…. just not tonight i have an early morning day tomorrow…
