[edited to add: i don't really like this post but i'll leave it up if anyone else does. let me know by friday okay? otherwise i'll take it down]
yes
yes i want to bone
good god yes can we do it right now?
i don’t say that though to your husky voice and your wise eyes, no i don’t. instead i say something about your wife that i will regret for at least a month. i tell you i don’t want her mad at me even though i’ve never met her.
and i think maybe you knew i would say that…
yes.
i wanted to say yes. and if i said yes? if i said yes we wouldn’t have left a mattress long enough to do anything but show up for our assignments.
in my head i said yes.
i said yes then and later and later still and then i said it many, many times in a row in a voice not recognizeably my own.
you bit me and i scratched you and we emerged joined from our shared bed. we emerged changed and panting and smiling and laughing at nothing.
i squeezed you and you pulled my hair and our teeth clashed and the jewellery in our mouths made music that only we could hear.
i tugged at the metal in your nipples and the metal i imagine you keep tucked into your shorts and i nibbled and bit and fondled and sighed and you tugged at the metal in my navel and exclaimed over the hole in my nipple with no metal left and bit me there until i almost cried.
cried out from the sheer joy of it. skipped the niceties and slid home and let all our instincts out at once and fucked like the animals we really are and cared not a whit for polite convention beyond “dude that’s my hair” and “dude pass the bowl” and “dude i think we just ran out of condoms.”
i have montages of videos of incredibly hot, occasionally impossible pornography starring me and you and your tattoos and various body piercings and sometimes rope and often blindfolds and always teeth.
i can feel my pussy throb with want for you.
i can feel the back of my throat open and yielding and my mouth water at the thought of swallowing you whole.
i can feel my teeth graze your silken skin and i swear i can smell you right there.
i can feel my body taking you in and playing with you as my pelvic floor works it’s way up and down your sure to be engorged shaft. your stiff and aching and unbearably wanting bone that i can feel from here even though you’re in bed with someone else right now in a time zone far enough away.
on my eyelids when i close them are all the things we would have tried. all the positions and kinks and niceties that we would have practiced on each other and i know we would have because it’s like that with us.
i ache for the yes i didn’t say.
ache.
