badinfluencegirl

i have never been one for phone sex, like at all. although i have also never been into cybersex i have tried that to some extent. in fact? a very long time ago on undernet i played in the bdsm chatrooms and even in the gorean ones.

oh shucks gor? it’s um… here’s the wikipedia on it.

anyway the gor stuff involved far too much ‘this girl wishes to please you oh great and strong and powerful master with thigh of steel and shoulders hewn by a master sculptor’ and even more ‘this girl prepares your drink…’ which lasted an hour or something.

and of course? you weren’t allowed to just make a standard serve and then keep pasting it into the channel oh no. it had to be a unique and different serve every time.

okay for thesaurus me but not so okay for most.

er a quick background expose:

10 Basic Steps of a Serve:

1. Beginning your serve
2. Going to the service area
3. Selecting and cleaning the utensil
4. Getting and preparing the food or drink
5. Returning to the Master
6. Kneeling position and posture
7. Pouring the drink
8. The Kiss
9. The Offering
10. End of your service

full example of a gorean serve here

this takes a while and if you’re already prone to repetitive strain issues online gor is NOT FOR YOU.

that said, i got myself collared once or twice and experimented with different behaviours and felt that i was at least learning something about myself and what i like.

i’m not particularly submissive but i do greatly enjoy giving respect to people and i find myself calling men sir at the slightest opportunity. course some time in military cadets helped with that… anyway, respect is comfortable for me whereas abject subjugation isn’t. so while i enjoyed my time playing gorean slave girl i always knew that i was playing and frankly i’m not the person to ask if you want to take it seriously…

but i did end up having a fair amount of lame cybersex while i was at it. see i’m going to describe basically all cybersex as lame because if the sex is any good you don’t have any hands free to type and if the typing is any good?

you don’t have any hands free to get off.

(please note that i do NOT include webcam acts in this)

basically i think the whole thing is kind of silly and at the end of it? you’re still alone.

so never been one for the phone or cybersex even though i write smut and can probably still nail a gorean serve without thinking twice about it.

so you can imagine my surprise recently when something started to change that attitude.

you see, my lover is one of those men with the libido you know? so he masturbates on the days that he doesn’t see me and even on some of the days where he does. this grows more true as he gains confidence in our sex life and his performance anxiety decreases.

it’s not so bad if you can’t come because you masturbated five times today if you and she have been sleeping together for a year. it’s a problem if you’ve been sleepng together for a week… see?

so he tends to tell me about these forays with his own body and over time i have grown to be his favourite masturbatory fantasy. quite the compliment really.

so the other day?

the other day he stays in my bed when i leave for work and then later tells me that he woke up to sheets smelling like me and then stopped to read his favourite post and one thing led to another and he hoped i didn’t mind dna on my sheets…

and i so didn’t!

in fact? i’m thrilled [and mildly aroused!]!

i can get my boyfriend off without even being there…. how cool is that?