heated

August 19, 2008 — badinfluencegirl

i’ve done this before but why let that stop me from telling you about this time right?

there is something about being in a tent in the summer that has a particular effect on me.  in this particular case i was changing from morning sarong to afternoon skirt and i couldn’t find my panties.  there i was, skirt around me, bra and tank top on with my lips pressing against my flannel sheeted air mattress.

it pressed back and warm flannel sat against my skin as the bumps of the mattress rose against me.  i didn’t notice at first and then i moved a leg just enough that my curls were flattened into the rounded bulge of the mattress..

i rubbed almost unconsciously.  well unconsciously to start with.

instantly i felt my legs split further and my breath quicken as i began to rock ever so slightly.  at first i was even still looking for my panties.  at first but not for long.

i stay kneeled up on the mattress and rock for a while; long enough to feel my skin heat and dew touch my lips.  my breath drops more deeply in my chest and i can feel my back starting to arch and lift my breasts.

a glance at the door confirms that it is mostly shut and i drop to my back on the pile of sun heated bedding.  it’s hot in here, the kind of hot that makes it hard to catch your breath.  the kind that cooks your skin and makes your muslces extra languid.

that’s it for my resistance and my fingers travel down to the cool heat between my legs.  there is a heaviness there and already my hips are twitching and my chin is lifting.

i reach above my head to the door of the tent and hold it open enough for a breeze but not enough to expose myself to the field full of tents that falls away under my gaze.  i groan to see all those people so close, separated from my by nothing more than a couple of sheets of nylon and their own failure to observe.

i stare at the passers by and imagine that they look through the gap in my tent door; that they look through and see my face contorted in beautiful agony.  that they see me and feel a shaft of my heat travel through them and that they will touch themselves later and think of me.

i see them spurting and groaning, faces contorted; i see their dreams of my naked body splayed before them as i abandon myself to my pleasure.

i am making small groaning noises now.  noises which both horrify and delight me in equal measure.  i hope no one can hear me slightly less than i hope someone can hear me and knows what i am doing.  every pant and sigh and little mewl of pleasure wafting through the hot sun baked air and into their eager ears.

hands unable to resist their own straining bodies as i drive them to partake of the heat this day brings right along with me.  i can see them all as my hips thrust and my eyes flutter and my chin drives for the ceiling.

i have started coming now but my fingers don’t stop their furious dance.  little eddies of pleasure swirl through my nervous system as i buck and buck and drive myself higher into the still heat that surrounds me.  my pants deepen into groans and my eyes are no longer willing to focus.

little spurts are shuddering out of me from deep inside myself now and my whole body opens and yearns for more.  my hands swirl furiously and i groan again, more loudly, as i buck and buck again but still i am not letting go.

i am driving my body to gush fluids on to my warm flannel bed and i feel you driving into me as i thrust and thrust and thrust again.

finally my hips drop and grind into the bed and i shudder once, twice, ten times as my body erupts from toes to nose in quivering release and my straining muscles lock and unclench along with my erupting nervous system.

i wouldn’t be surprised if every sphincter in my body released, in fact i’m surprised that some of them don’t i’m coming so hard.

at last my fingers stop driving me and i collapse, pulsing, to my bed before going back out to the festival; face flushed and relaxed as my fluids continue to drip down my legs.

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review: lelo gigi

August 12, 2008 — badinfluencegirl

i have coveted very few sex toys in my life but i have coveted this one since ever i first saw it back around christmas. and then? one very lovely day? the folks at libida.com sent me one to review!

my life rocks did i mention?

lelo makes inordinately pretty toys; all soft curves and light colours that are clearly designed by people who love femininity and pastels. the instructions come in multiple languages and although i find the packaging mildly excessive i can’t argue with results as the toy shows up undamaged and charged.

did i mention that lelo toys are rechargeable? no? well they are and they charge FAST with a simple device to indicate charging (flashing light) and charged (solid light.) awesome right?

see that little circle on the white part? that’s the control pad and the ring is where the light is. you can lock the control pad for travel by pressing and holding the centre for five seconds and otherwise a shorter press turns it off and on. below that circle is the hole for charging it and said hole is covered to protect the plug from girl juice and lube.

all in all a pretty stellar design although the control pad is a little annoying when gigi is all the way inside you or when it’s covered in lube. there are five vibration patterns plus a nicely speeded straight vibration setting and twelve speeds on each setting.

there are a lot of things to like about gigi.  she has a lovely flat top that rests on your clit or vaginal entrance and allows the full pulsation to hit you wherever you place it  (also useful if you press it against a non vibing toy because the conductive surface is large and it transfers the vibration extremely well.

gigi is pretty and well made and has good speeds and is rechargeable and it’s quite quiet except at the highest settings [when i wrote this review i was assured that the high pitched whine i heard on the low settings had been fixed in the newer models and thus did not mention it.  it has not been fixed and is quite unpleasant] and comes with a lovely carrying pouch and a pretty compact recharger… not to mention that debauchette and chelsea both like it which is some pretty damn fine praise.

i wish that the patterns were endless, as in i would like it if i pressed the up arrow and after going through the variations it just started again at the beginning.  instead it stops and you have to press the down arrow.  doesn’t matter that much but does make for less variety in my fun.

anyway i tried gigi several times and the first few were relatively disappointing.  i couldn’t even get myself off the first time!

then i got the hang of her.

turns out that for me miss gigi prefers a slow buildup with work in her lesser speeds and some play with my vaginal entrance and even my nipples.  my body doesn’t want gigi to be quick and dirty but rather wants to play for a nice long time.

and that’s okay it really is.  in fact i even understand what all the fuss is about.  gigi is a great toy.  it’s well made and pretty to look at, it’s rechargeable and the vibration patterns (while unimaginative) are exactly what the sex gods ordered and their strongest and weakest buzz are so far apart that really i’m pretty sure they would satisfy any woman any old time.

gigi doesn’t slide in as well as she might because of the strangely shaped head but once in?  once in you will feel her vibrations shimmy through your entire nether regions and your hips will most defintely do their personal happy dance… although personally i prefer her for clitoral or vaginal entrance stimulation (or for holding against a non vibrating dildo!) she does do a fine job with the g-spot in spite of her lack of power on the higher end.

i do think i will use gigi more externally than internally but i will definitely use her.

in fact i think i sum her up like this: gigi is an excellently made and lovely vibrator that doesn’t do anything original but does give a nice twist on an old classic.  she definitely packs a punch and her great variation in vibration speeds will please anyone who cares to try her.

if you are looking for a high end vibe that does the job and packs away small this is definitely the toy for you!

nine out of ten because she’s missing the wow factor and the half point she gets for being rechargeable she loses for excessive packaging materials.  don’t break the bank for this one but don’t shy away from it either.  and do allow me to mention that mine is the MOST lukewarm review i’ve ever seen [and i asked at my local sex shop and they all love it there too] of this vibe so i’m pretty sure no one will be disappointed by it! [really i want to change the grade now that i know about the motor... this toy is almost as good as it should be... but isn't]

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limbo

August 6, 2008 — badinfluencegirl

it’s a funny place i find myself in right now.

i’ve been seeing this great guy for a while now (like nearly a year) and lately we haven’t been being as nice to each other as we would like to be.  we haven’t enjoyed the way we’re being with each other at all for quite a while so we’ve decided to take a little break and then revisit the situation.

so i’m in this weird halfway space where i have a boyfriend but i’m not seeing him and sometimes i’m glad he’s not around and sometimes i find myself craning my neck to notice the lights on at his work as i drive by on my way home from electrolysis.

and i kind of don’t know how i feel or what i want the outcome to be.  i’ve been reading a lot of novels and kind of staring at books or talking to one of the more professionally single women i know and just kind of not thinking very much about it.

i try to make myself think about it.  think about this relationship that i’m in with this very nice man who can often make me laugh in spite of myself and yet who i find myself being impatient and snappish with.  think about sex and laughing and eating together and why i’m not as interested in what he has to say as i once was.

i wonder if it’s me, that my incredible ability to be alone leaves me looking for that state rather than that of a paired molecule.

and i can’t begin to put into words how weird it is to be an inch away from the break up line with a man a truly like and respect.  he’s got stuff that makes me nuts of course, but then so does my best friend and every member of my family.

i think, in the end, that it might come down to timing.  i guess it nearly always does.

*

there are the words of so many smart people in happy relationships singing in my head right now…

“you’re bored!  you’re bickering and you’re bored, ALREADY! … what are you gonna do in ten years?”

“sounds like you need a break … before you need a break“

“it’s not supposed to be this hard”

“you guys seem perfect for each other”

you will notice they basically cancel each other out.

and of course, smart words from smart readers are welcome…

*

i don’t know how i feel.

i’ve come to the conclusion that i actually need to just not think about it.  i need to just let my head get out of the way and see what my actions and my heart tell me.  somehow it’s like i’ve disconnected from a bunch of myself in the last while.

some of it was actually maybe not my fault.  several different people that i trust who do bodywork (reiki, acupuncture, osteopathy/pilates) all tell me that my liver is inert and that my digestive issues probably come more from my heart and my pelvis.

which, funnily enough, are the places i’m having a hard time talking to right now.

anyway i’ve decided that i don’t know how i feel until i see him.  that i need to just spend some time being alone and enjoying the silence and letting myself reset so my heart can actually be heard.

perhaps we will know the answer, together, as we have known so many other things.

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chill factor

August 1, 2008 — badinfluencegirl

so weird.

i went for acupuncture yesterday because i’ve been having a lot of trouble with my digestion/bladder and enough people have suggested that my chi/energy might be out and causing this that i’ve decided to hear them.

you can only hear wise people all saying the same thing before you decide to listen after all.

anyway i’ve had naturopaths suggested as well but it didn’t feel like the right answer and acupuncture did.

now i’ve had acupuncture before but clearly my then practitioner was not nearly as skilled as this lady because i felt all sorts of things that never happened the last time i tried it.

i know, you’re wondering why this is going in my sex blog aren’t you?  patience grasshopper.

first of all i felt the needles in my body in a way that i did not before.  there was a sense of heaviness to some of them and others i didn’t notice at all.  but that was only the beginning.  one spot she stuck a needle and my ear felt poked and yet no matter how many times i checked there STILL wasn’t a needle in my ear.

so weird.

anyway so i lie on the table and i breathe and i try to be present in the experience and blah blah spiritual blah.

then i start to get these funny chills running through my abdomen and down my right leg.  what’s particularly interesting about these chills is that they are following almost exactly the nerve lines from my spine and down my legs.

i can literally feel little waves of cold energy running down my leg and then it spreads to my liver and then it starts getting really weird.

well to me… since i’ve never FELT acupuncture before.

i mean literally i’ve laid on the table and felt nothing.  interesting what going to see someone with a PhD in a subject will do.

okay so i have a swirl in my belly and little feelers of energy running to my liver and down my right leg.  fine right?

yeah so then it sends a slip into my right nipple and hangs out there!

i’m thinking my nipple is sticking up in a hard little point caused by cold and i just can’t resist… cannot.

so i lift up my hand and check and nope.  not hard at all.  just getting these weird internal chill tingles that feel delicious.

all right that’s weird enough but now i lie there some more and bam if it doesn’t start in on my LEFT nipple now too!

so there i am with both my nipples tingling and chilling and some weird swirl in my belly and strange cold energy running from my kiri (centre) out to my liver and down my right leg.

yeah so that was odd.

but it wasn’t over yet.

nope, THEN i start feeling my genital region kind of pulse or react or something.  i cannot begin to put this sensation into words EXCEPT to say that it was hella strange and quite pleasurable.

not like having an orgasm levels of pleasure… more like that heaviness you get when you’re feeling horny and maybe you’ve just started touching yourself like nipple teasing or skin stroking so you know you’re going to get all sloppy and jiggy and even wriggly but you haven’t yet.

now to be clear, i have not one thing against this kind of feeling but it’s sure weird to feel it while you think you’re supposed to be bored out of your mind on the acupuncturist’s table.

up until now i’ve always been one of those willing believers when it came to acupuncture.  not entirely sceptical because too many solid people believed that it worked but not entirely sold because it hadn’t particularly done anything for ME.

so you know, i believed rationally but i didn’t get it.  yeah and then i met the lady with the PhD and a zillion years of experience and wow.

i might just find my right side someday!

and maybe i won’t have to work so damn hard to STAY HORNY!

:)

please please please let all these people be right that this is a chi/energy issue…

please?

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