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urologist tells me i pee too much and the gyno i just saw referred me to a urine specialist gyno and i’ve just gotten a referral for a doctor of acupuncture so im going to try that while i wait for the second gyno. it’s getting verry frustrating.

thanks i’ll google it shortly.

fyi i felt exactly the same way when i was on the pill plus general nausea all month. i had an iud but i no longer do and all it did was make my cramps worse and somehow helped me regulate my periods…
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AS: it’s true. forcing oneself to get started sexually is akin to forcing oneself outside into the sun while depressed. fucking hard to do but worth it nonetheless…

and thanks!
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gillette: that it does :)

i think so too. there is this little dread pill that sits on top of my sex drive right now and it is NOT helping!

i have been having my osteopath take a look/feel and she has unblocked some sphincters and the like. funnily enough she too suggested acupuncture and referred me to a good one. i’ll keep you informed!

:) [i still want to see a gyno though because my mom had bladder surgery THRICE so i want to sort of cover all my bases]

(have you read weaveworld by barker? non horror and yet wonderful anyway) you’re right about horror, if we didn’t read it like a train wreck it would do nothing at all for us. that said, i haven’t liked king since he fired the editor that cut hundreds of boring pages out of his books. i mean really now, just how long can you climb a flight of stairs for if nothing happens at the top? but i digress.

i’m glad you think it was worth posting, i somehow knew that i had to even as i couldn’t really believe i was going to.
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unbroken: thank you. i think shocking a regular reader is a high compliment indeed!

what might you add to such a disclaimer to better warn yourself?
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red: lol

nope you were pretty much dead on. i don’t write from the man’s side often but i’m glad to know that i *can*
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pitseleh: word.

but yeah it’s definitely cathartic to write that down and let the rage or whatever out of your head…
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kyra: ah fair enough, i wasn’t really clear. i guess i don’t really know what to call these images that spring into my head if not fantasies you know?

i’ve absolutely had ravishment fantasies but never so hard core as this. more of the “she fought the hot fire of his tongue before succumbing with a moan” version than actual rape.
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IS: i think it’s my combination historical romance and science fiction addiction although the former is less now. your understanding of rape psycholgy and mine are the same here, what i don’t know is whether or not it’s possible to force a woman to orgasm… but i tend to think it might be with some women and that is where the real squick of this one lies for me.

I would think the bladder thing huge in the considerations. Will be interesting to see what happens when it goes.

But…hm….flash…have you considered that the infection might be a manifestation of stagnant chi of some sort to the whole area so, of course both might be affected? Hm…..been to an acupuncturist? I don’t find allopathy to be all that effective for long term stuff.

I can understand why you wouldn’t be interested given the bladder problems. I’m sorry I haven’t read the old posts to know the history. Have you looked to a urologist?

There is a disease called Intersticial Cystitis that is worth reading up on.

FYI I felt like you feel now when I was on the Pill. Flat. Just flat sexually. And yeah, I could feel arousal then, just lacked motivation to try it. I have an IUD now.

I hope your flashlight illuminates the way soon.

what does ESO mean?

there will be tent sex shortly and i am already stoked…
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kyra: that’s how i felt writing it!